8 Weeks, 6 Days

Today has been such a breath of fresh air for me and I really needed it bad.

Yesterday, I could not hold the nausea at bay. 
I didn't vomit but it was so bad that I wanted to.
I just couldn't shake it, not the whole day long.

But today I awoke and felt...almost normal!
I've still been sickly here and there but I've been sticking to just fresh fruits today (you ask for the WORST stuff, I tell you--knock it off!) and it's definitely made a difference.
For today :)
There are days where no amount of bananas is going to help me out so I just need to be happy for what I get.

I was thinking today about your name--I think I know who you will be whether you're a girl or a boy but I'm not totally certain. 
Let's just say we have front-runners.
These names are absolutely top-secret, we don't tell family or friends what we're thinking because...well, because we don't like to.
Our names are typically...a bit different...and the natural reaction (for many people) is to do the whole nose-wrinkle thing and say, "Ohhhh.  That's....cute." 
When really, they don't think it's cute at all and I can totally tell.

But I don't care what other people think of our names so I'm never really interested in getting an opinion and I don't want someone's reaction to sway my decision.
We look high and low for names that "fit" and then we pull the naming trigger.
Period.
Everyone finds out at the same time--my mom, my sister, Charlie's family, the recorder of live births :)
We have had strong family opposition to a name before (my mother about died when we named Rhyse) but it was over and done, there was nothing she could do but accept it, and in the end, I knew we made the right decision for US.  Had she known before he arrived, she and I would have engaged in a verbal match-up like no other--she was THAT upset over the name.
But we picked what we wanted and today, there is family harmony :)
Everyone will deal with our selection.
(Eventually.)

Why I'm bringing this up is because something very WEIRD happened recently, regarding your potential name and I still just can't stop being positively baffled over it.

Several weeks ago, we ended our co-op with Showcase night. 
You'll figure out what all those words mean soon enough as you will be endlessly dragged to both for years.

Anyway, that night Creux was running around without a shirt on because he'd spilled some water on himself and was near apocalytic over it. 
One of our teachers, who isn't intimately familiar with my family but recognized that Creux belonged to me, walked over and she said something along the lines of "He's missing his shirt!"
But where she should have said Creux's name, she said YOUR potential boy one.
"(Super-top-secret largely unknown name) is missing his shirt!" is precisely what I heard.

And I looked at her and I said, "WHAT?"

I was truly taken aback; I was just so thoroughly startled at hearing the name used out-loud (it's not common).
PLUS, I was working hard to hide you still and I was rattled to the core that she picked that name of all the names to toss out...I just couldn't believe it.
She must've known that Creux's name was something...unusual...but how that name, of all the names in the world, she could have mistaken his with was just very Twilight Zone-y to me.
Surely I looked the part because I could barely talk to her.
I was busy wondering who told her my baby name!  :)
(No one did, she could never have known in a million years but it was very coincidental--neatly so.  Maybe this is the name for you after all?)

Anyway, I nearly killed myself tripping over kids to find your daddy to tell him what had just happened.
He was less than appropriately shocked.
"Really?" he said, like it was no big thing.
I think he received the same look that the teacher did when she called Creux your Maybe Boy Name.
Harumph!

Your Maybe Boy Name does not exist on the 100 Most Popular list in ANY decade.
I've already checked.
Actually, the only of your siblings names to appear anywhere near that list is Greer's middle name: Addison.
Though I usually love many of the names that pop up on those lists, I'm strongly opposed to anything likely to show up three times in one preschool class.
As you will come to know, my name is NOT unusual--"Angela" was like number seven on the Most Popular list in the year of my birth.
I only go by that name if I'm signing documents or if I'm in a LOT of trouble. 
(And here I am, 33 years old, sometimes still receiving emails from my mother, who, when mad, bangs out that formal name at the top of her letter.)
"Angi" is no less common and, growing up, there were many of my kind.
So many in fact, that there's another "Angie" in this very family--your aunt on daddy's side.
For a few years, there were TWO Angi/Angie Martins in ONE family and it has ALWAYS been annoyingly confusing.

So you see, this is why I strive for something "different" for you kids.  It just always bugged me to hear my name a million times for a million other girls.
I am POSITIVE that this will not happen with you or your siblings :)

Anyway, it'll be neat to see who you end up being.
We're not settled on anything yet though like I said, we have front-runners and every contender is compared to those: "Do we like this better?  Or THAT better?"
We have plenty of time though.
We'll pick something perfectly different for you so, no worries in there.
There's a fine line between "unique" and "crazy" and I know the line limits :)

Loving you already,
Mama